It's been a while I have not written on this blog... I remember my purpose of writing this blog was to make a beginning to my writer instinct. This blog was to play the role of a writer inside me who can easily put into words her thoughts on a subject... Today, however I feel this instinct has been easier said than done.
At times, I have typed long posts, at times short, some published and some unpublished, while some posts or thoughts just remained in my thoughts as strands of ideas to build connections at later point, where or when this point will come is mysterious. There were topics that interested me for a while and I thought, " I have to blog about this." With time, I felt, "Nahhh", let it pass... Some other time...
The reason why I am mentioning the above is to make my readers understand that you may not always express something you feel in words or actions, but feelings and experiences are always there and add a lot to a person's identity and existence. Just the way, I feel and experience a lot but unfortunately cannot write all my feelings and experiences on this blog, I am sure there are many who feel and experience a lot but more often than not our busy lives never give us the time to reflect on these feelings and experiences as well as their causes and effects...
I can vouch the time issues we all face in this century. Whilst am doing my double masters programme in London, I know how difficult it is to get some time out for oneself. The question to be raised here, " Do I do what keeps me happy amidst my busy life?"
In this world, we may be out to please people and the society around us and in that race of pleasing all, sometimes we forget to please ourselves and look out for our own happiness... However, I know that as a person I always try to keep people around me happy though I may not be doing to the best of my ability at times, but the intention and efforts are always present. As far as, I am concerned, I feel there is a need also to keep oneself happy as your personal happiness becomes a route to keeping others happy :)
For me, being a teacher has helped me be happy and keep others happy...
Today, I can say that when I walk into a classroom, I know I am going there with a feeling of making sure that my students learn something which they not only learn for the classroom purpose but carry it outside and beyond that classroom environment...
I know that not all of them are perhaps interested in everything we discuss or learn in the class but my ability to instill curiosity in them and give them the ability to further explore our discussions is the key to our happiness as a class....
I also understand that I cannot expect them to be as enthusiastic about learning on all days but yes my happiness in teaching and positive energy levels should perhaps rub off them and make them feel motivated and positive of being in the classroom..
I unfortunately have to touch on a sensitive issue here... I also know that some of my students are not coming from a very friendly or positive home atmosphere but I should be able to treat all equally and make them feel that life will unfold many opportunities for them to find their happiness and give them the signs and ladders to their success and unending happiness...
As a teacher, I always strive for the above and I can say I have been more successful than I thought I would be...for which I thank the Almighty.
There have been days where I myself have not been feeling at my best but my main motive of making my students happy and making a difference to their lives has ensured that this remorse in my life never affects them adversely. At all times, their happiness has come before me :)
At the end of the day, I have come to realise a teacher is after all someone who spreads more than the curriculum learning, she brings happiness to students :)
